I guess I've been fueled by massive amounts of hormones I'd say. Why??. Because this feeling starting to take riot on me, starting to take toll on me and even drives me insane.

People says throughout the years when you can't handle your feelings well, you might ended up in some shrink's office or even worse the mental clinic. I've gone through salads of emotion these days where the dressing is my tears. I have some friends who supports me through thick and thin, but there are also some who just can be sometimes undeniably a complete ass. I've just ask for one thing, support and happiness, but it seems that happiness does not come in fair prices, no wonder The Beatles said Happiness is a warm gun. As I'm slowly exposing to them on who I am in the "real world", Ive started to ask for more. I need more support, that's what makes me think Ive made the biggest mistake in my life by telling just some people. I need more people to know about me even though I know that I'll surely be judge and they would refuse to be friend of mine.

Isn't it just unfair that you just couldn't tell someone you love maybe perhaps your family, just because you're afraid that you might ended up hurting their feelings. So what should I do then?? Run away far from home and hook up with an anonymous on the street or should I just commit suicide, or even better keep this feelings inside and let no one know about this?? I just want to say the truth but I can't because truth sometimes can be hurtful, and I don't want to be hurt and caused agony.