When Two Great Things Can't Occur In Your Life At Once  

Posted by Madean

Yesterday was the most nerve-wrecking day ever in my life as two major things happening in my life(i guess).

1) Passed my driving test.

IMKEDA was filled with people. But there, I found few of my friends
Byla(haha happy to c u, but i tot u went to Keramat, WTF??),
Yee Shyan(hurm blur as ever, not to mention silly, but ur dress have changed a lot I've seen), Latifah(ahaha she's busy talking while I'm on my way to the mosque for my Friday prayer, without her tudung ;pp)

My number was GREEN 12 and man do I have to wait for ages?? Because it was the last group to go for the test.

After a long wait and pray(damn until after Friday prayer!!) I finally pass, who would have thought I would pass it after all those whining around on how I suck at driving.

2)Failed to Secure Scholarship.

Hurm yeah I sure feel sad about it, but I remain positive as if it's not mine, it's not mine.

HAHAHAH.

But, I'm grateful I've been given the chance to go for the interview and experience it myself.

I'd like to quote from Randy Pausch
"EXPERIENCE IS WHAT YOU GET, WHEN YOU DIDN'T GET WHAT YOU WANTED"

And I believe in what he said, those experience made me even stronger and grateful of what i have today.

Guess two things won't happen at the same time same moment eh?
But I thanked God for the experience I've gone through.

Off the Shoulders, Hole in the Soul  

Posted by Madean

I've just told one of my fren my biggest secret which is still a Taboo in our society.

Man do i feel lighter after spill it all out. S

Sure it's of my shoulder, but somehow I felt the emptiness pouring in my heart, should it be because I told someone about my secret, or is it because I don't know what is what anymore.


Thanks didi for the advice ,but, I think i need more time, which will be like forever, to uncover myself that makes me who I am and choose to be.


I can sure do what you ask me to, but I certainly can't cheat my own feeling or anyone.

I know it's wrong ,but, I don't ask for it, but somehow I just did(Hey people didn't just woke up one day and say that they want to be like "this"), and I believe God have created a different path for everyone, and I hope He accept me for the way I am.


For me I think love stinks and it rips your heart untill you can't bear no more.

I haven't experience love unfortunately, but, to love someone that you shouldn't is definitely heart-breaking.


So, what is love???
A magician who put it in a napkin and turn it into a lovers??
Or is it as beautiful as some might say??



p/s: I am what I am, Just a wrong soul For a different body.